Reignite

I know that I don't say it enough, but I really have some truly great people in my life. I have a lot of "champions"...people supporting me and helping me complete my goals and cheering me on to the finish line. Had a meeting of the "group" tonight and got some much needed support and tips from EOB, JC and GI Jane. I'm feeling good about my progress these last 2 weeks and feeling like I can continue on this path while I'm away.

For those of you who don't know, on Saturday, I'm heading to western PA to help teach at my friend Tim's high school marching band camp. This will be the 10th year that I've traveled to do this! WHOA. Can't believe it. But being out of your element and in someone else's world is jarring. I knew that I needed to rein myself in and get a handle on some stuff before I went away. I needed to get back into the habit of exercising and even though the stuff I've been doing, swimming and tap class, will be unavailable to me, there is quite a bit of stuff I can do. I may have to be inventive...create a mini-circuit in their yard, do body weight stuff, or even use their baby as a free weight! (Just kidding!) Plus, I'm also going to attempt to blog everyday. That'll probably be the hardest part. But I'm going to give it a whirl...

I went swimming again today and I felt great. I'm exhausted, but I know it's for a good reason. I did 40 laps today, 1000 yds! I even had a hard time walking home, I was so tired. But it felt good. It still feels good. I'm glad that I've found this pool and hopefully can make their fall schedule fit into my own. Of course, if my work situation changes, I could definitely fit it in. But that's a whole different topic for a different time...

Anyway, to make a long story short. I was reminded of how in the beginning, this blog was an expression of my triumph and celebrating the hard work i was doing. As of late it's become a place for me to be at my weakest and most vulnerable state for all to read. I'm going to do my best to find a happy medium between the two. It's not fun for me to write and be wallowing in self-pity, as I'm sure it's not fun to read. But it may cause you to think about your own situation in ways you weren't able to because of something I've said. And it's quite cathartic for me. I have no idea who is reading this, nor do I understand the impact I've apparently made on other people. I can't be downtrodden because this journey is not over. It'll never ever be over. I have to remember that I am a very different person than I once was, both physically and mentally. I have triumphed over a lot. I have managed to keep off 60-70 lbs for about a year. That's pretty impressive.

On Sept 21st, it'll be exactly 2 years since I had a soda and also since I started on this journey. Sure, i was hoping to be over the 100 lb mark by then...but I have to remember that what I've done is remarkable in itself. It's time to reevaluate, reboot and reignite my passion for healthy living. Fall is a great time for races and exercising outdoors, not that I'm wishing away the summer, but sadly, it is almost over. Time to refocus, recommit and reinforce the lessons I've learned along the way.

Come on in, the water's fine...