The Process

So, I finally had my Sweeney Todd audition, got called back for 2 roles, Mrs Lovett and the Beggar Woman. I have been offered the role of the Beggar Woman and I accepted it. Am I disappointed? Yes. I really wanted to play Mrs Lovett. It's definitely a dream role for me. Was I in the running? Certainly. I understand that for whatever reason, I wasn't cast, and that's okay. I know that doesn't mean that I'm not a good singer or actress. I am competent. I am also trying not to be a sore loser about it. I fully intend on giving a kickass performance, but how do you get over stuff like this?

Singers/Actors, you know what I'm talking about...you sign up for an audition and you prepare for it, you think about it, you put yourself in the role and then maybe you're given something else, or worse yet, not cast at all. I've had this audition on my calendar for at least 3 months. I wanted this role. I wanted it so badly. But, I said it immediately following the callbacks...I can't be mad about what happens. I went in there and did what I set out to do. I felt great about what I did. I enjoyed the process. I took the opportunity to sing Mrs Lovett's music, as I might not get the chance. And I was happy. There are a lot of things that could've made them decide one way or the other. And that's okay. (I have to keep telling myself that...)

I am grateful to actually be in a production of Sweeney though. It's rarely done because it is such an undertaking. Even though I was disappointed, I couldn't imagine turning it down. I just want to sing. I want to perform. I want to grow as a musician and an actress, and even though it's a small role, it's vital, and downright crazy. I'll have a lot to play with and show off in a little bit of a time. I am excited to meet some new people, get to work with a new group and just get back into the creative process.

Hopefully this won't derail my exercise/healthy track again. I have to be much more mindful of it now, especially with the Tufts 10K right around the corner. I'm going to be super busy this fall with rehearsals, tap class on Thurs, and training and stuff. Whoa. Ah well. I love it and that's why I do it.

**SPOILER ALERT: If you don't know the story of Sweeney, STOP reading right now....**

It's funny that I'm the "beautiful" wife of Sweeney that everyone is hot for...I get to be sexy...under all of the haggy rags I'll be wearing...yeeeeeeeeah. Looking forward to having my throat slit on stage too...and hopefully I"ll get to ride in a trapdoor chair!